
This month's letter is written by Vajrashura, who first came across Triratna in Ireland, in 1999, at the age of 22. He was ordained in 2007 in Guhyaloka by Kulananda, and since 2009 has been the men’s Mitra Convenor for Dublin where he lives in a men's community. He now also works for the Sikkha Project on a part-time basis and joined the College in 2020.
Hear more from Vajrashura in a talk he gave on Sadhana, White Tara and Compassion at Padmaloka in 2022, in which he explores the nature of sadhana by sharing his personal relationship with his yidam White Tara.
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Dear Order members and friends,
On our recent Men’s Private Preceptors retreat, one of the discussion groups was dwelling upon the question ‘how do we know our system of practice will lead to results?’ Amoghavamsa, hitherto relatively quiet in the group, told a story. He had been visiting the Newcastle Sangha a couple of years earlier, and while there had started to feel very unwell, to the point of blacking out as he was being brought to the local hospital. It subsequently turned out he was having a major heart attack.
When he regained consciousness, he found himself floating a good distance above his body, and felt suffused with bliss and light. After a time, looking down he could see the doctor and nurse frantically working on his physical body, attempting to bring him back to (normal) life. Noticing that they looked rather stressed, he found himself feeling a great compassion for them. The next thing he knew he woke up in the ward with the thought ‘here we go again’ and a wry smile.
‘So’, he said on the Private Preceptors retreat two years later and still not fully recovered physically, ‘I am completely confident that our system of practice leads to results’.
It's no easy thing to explain our confidence in the Dharma or in a particular system of training. Confidence, śraddhā, trust in practice and fruits of practice – they are generally subtler and quieter threads woven into the life of a Dharma farer, and easily lost in the louder and brasher needs and demands of life. Quantifying them, we risk falling too much back on the rational mind, which is not equipped to carry out such analysis. Perhaps it’s only at extreme times, such as Amoghavamsa experienced, that we can really see how much we have progressed.
Though we can get glimpses! On that same Private Preceptors retreat, you could see the magic and fruits of a life in the Order manifesting. The Order is at its best when it serves something beyond itself, and on this retreat, we were 68 men particularly concerned with and responsible for helping men deepen their practice to the point of being effective, conducting their ordinations into the Order, and then helping them to live an effective Dharma life in the Order.
Harmony, like śraddhā, can also be difficult to quantify. Yet it was clear that on this retreat, a deeper harmony emerged – not just harmony in the sense of getting on well or friendliness (important as those are), but a harmony of vision and method: a harmony based upon serving a shared vision within a shared understanding of Dharma practice, and with a shared sense of our precious teacher Urgyen Sangharakshita.
On a rational level, this blending of wills and vision to the deeper unity might seem like a loss of individuality, but this only further highlights the limitations of the rational mind. That deeper unity and commonality is a truly creative space that we can only touch into together as an Order, and without it we will not be effective in the world.
This is what I feel Bhante was trying to communicate to us in his paper What is the Western Buddhist Order? And on the retreat, we had wonderful seminar study with Subhuti exploring this vision and paper. I want to rejoice in Subhuti’s clarity and dedication to Bhante’s vision – each day was tour-de-force exploration of the paper, inspiring us with the breadth of Bhante’s vision for our Order, and putting it up to us to ensure that this vision continues long into the future after we are gone.
Busy as he was, Subhuti also agreed to record a 30-minute talk for an upcoming new Mitra Study module, which we recorded together after lunch one day. Speaking without notes, he gave a wonderfully clear, precise, and yet profound talk on Spiritual Receptivity, which left me rather stunned afterwards. Thank you Subhuti!
Being together on retreats such as this, while I don’t think I come close to Amoghavamsa’s quiet and radiant confidence, I can happily say that our system of practice and our vision as an Order is more than sufficient for me, and I have more than enough to happily continue to give as much as I can to Bhante’s vision of the Order as a manifestation of the 1000-armed Avalokiteśvara.
What is the Western Buddhist Order? had quite an effect on our community. As well as communicating a clear, coherent vision of the Order, Bhante called for structures to help the liaison of all the different aspects of our community, ‘so that they are not each just going their separate ways or coming into some sort of conflict’. Out of this came, for example, the International Council. Bhante also, in that paper, gave the College the responsibility for evaluating how new practices would fit into our system of practice.
The Meditation Kula of the Sikkha Project has been asked by the College to work advise it in this commonality work - looking at meditation practices and their development within Triratna, seeing how they might best enhance our system of practice, and navigating potential difficulties or problems which might arise from these new approaches. The kula includes members of the College, including myself, and some of Triratna’s most experienced meditation teachers.
This meeting has been a stimulating and inspiring one. In the last year in particular, at the request of the College, we’ve been looking at Tonglen and its place within the Triratna system of practice. Tonglen isn’t quite a ‘new’ or ‘outside’ practice in Triratna, being already there in, for example, the Bodhicitta practice. But there is also some confusion about how exactly it does fit in, and how it can be used at different levels of experience. Our kula have produced a paper exploring Tonglen, which was presented to and well received by the College in November, and which will be shared and discussed more widely in the Order soon.
The process is, for me, a good example of Bhante’s Pillar of Experimentation, which he highlighted in his 1991 talk The Five Pillars of the FWBO and reemphasised in What is the Western Buddhist Order? – a planned and sympathetic exploration of a topic to see what is helpful in the approach and what might be a source of confusion or unhelpful divergence.
Finally, I would like to give an update on Arthapriya, who is a member of our men’s ‘Padma Kula’ in the College. Some of you will know that he has been suffering with painful backache for the last few months. This particularly flared up during a three-week solitary retreat he did over Xmas and the New Year at Adhisthana. After returning home his GP sent him for a battery of tests and scans, and the outcome of this is that he has been diagnosed with advanced (metastatic) prostate cancer. The cancer has spread into his bones, and it is this that is the main cause of the pain. Although the cancer is incurable, they hope to slow its growth and manage the pain. He is being treated with androgen deprivation therapy (ADT). One of the main side effects of the therapy (and the painkillers) is fatigue, but his states of mind remain very positive.
Because of his tiredness he is asking his friends not to phone or visit him until the pain and fatigue has eased. What he’d really like is for them to write to him by card or letter and update him on their lives. He has been very touched by all the cards, flowers, and well-wishing he has received.
His friends in Cambridge have set up a special email address you can use which Samamati will be regularly checking: arthapriyahealth@cambridgebuddhistcentre.com
With mettā,
Vajrashura